I woke up with morning wood and laid there in bed stroking myself. The sun was coming through the window just like any ordinary morning but, this time, my world was different. Last night I told my big brother Cole that I had found the gay porn he left behind in his room when he went away to college, and I admitted that I had looked at it. Then—I’m not sure why really, I guess I just needed to—I told him that the thing that really turned me on was thinking about him jacking off to it.